He loves me,
He loves me not,
He loves me,
He loves me not.
You think all of these things,
You try not to cry when he gets on your mind,
You realize how much he loves you back,
But sometimes you wonder if you're enough,
Do I make him happy?
Do I make him cry?
Is he okay?
Have you ever felt that way about someone?
You can't tell if they're hurting, and when you can...
It's hell. On Earth. It's absolutely terrible. You cry.
I cry every time I hear my love starting to sound upset.
You know, I really am a big believer in love, especially love in first sight,
But right now, I think I'm so damned hypnotized by him,
I can't really tell if I'm honestly okay, or if it's just an act for him,
So he won't worry. He won't care, he does care, but you don't want him to.
It makes everything more difficult.
"Are you okay?"
"I'm here for you."
"What's wrong, baby?"
If I were to say everything, he would ask me what I meant.
If I were to tell him everything, he would start crying.
So I prefer to tell him nothing, because then he can't bother me about caring.
I don't want him to care. I want him to care about himself.
All I know is that no matter what happens, I will be his forever and I will not
Will not hurt him, ever. He'll be okay with me. I won't hurt him.
I fantasize about him all of the time. He makes me happy and I want to be with him.
I want to stay with him and it scares the hell out of me that some other girl might
Just possibly
Fall in love with him.
And then he'll fall in love with her.
Then they'll be happy, because she's more beautiful than I am.
I usually cry myself to sleep thinking about this. Tonight, I couldn't. I couldn't sleep.
I want to talk to him. He's the only thing that keeps me from cutting, taking pills or burning.
I haven't burned in at least 2 days because I care so much about him and I know that
If I hurt myself, he would be really upset. And I don't want that. I love him too much.